Master of your Gridian Knot
Some time ago I was asked, if i really percieve myself as the heroine of my own life story. Why ever not? How could anyone not be the hero of their own life? I am the protagonist in my life, but I play different parts in every life I touch. These roles can vary within a connection, but also the relationship can change over time. The people within a relationship change, their or your own priorities, needs, passion or location, reality. Space impacts relationships. But it’s not only connections between people that facinate me, but the humans behind the node, and the question ‘why some do not percieve themselves as the hero of their own story’. Seeing every sidekick or villan in someone’s story has a story of their own. No one is ever only the one or the other. But one must step up to play the main role in one’s own life, to not stay stuck in the supporting figure in other people’s lives.
Let me explain: remeber every story you have ever been told, read, or saw in a Movie, there was always a hero or heroine. By hero I refer to the person in the center of the story, the one who’s perspective we take when telling/following the story. As most people do not exist completely disconnected, there arme always more than one charakter within a story. Each character plays a different part in the plot and helps unravel the heroes fate. In this case, the sideckicks ultimate fate is not the focus, but only the part how there lives entwine.
Eveytime I experience myself more as a sidekick to other peoples fortune, than taking agency in my own life and being the heroine of my own story, I feel powerless, vunerable and incomplete. Please do understand me correctly, I love all the parts and roles I play in the many lives I touch. To me it’s a privelege to support the people I am connected to, as best I can. However, I learnt about myself, that creating a path of my own, living what I believe in and sticking to it, no matter what, fullfills me.
So what do I mean by creative living, shaping my own path and agency? I engage in my life with a concious mind. Choices I make, values I choose to live, representations and views I foster or needs I meet, all reflect my awareness of life. These are not static, as my understanding evolves, so do my choices and actions. Then again, it all is in entwined consisting of manier factor not one person could ever master alone, as we are all connected, and you can only ever decide for yourself. But my goal is to harmonize my principles, and carve a path in balance with them and lifes challenges. Regardless of what politics, religion, society or any other institution migh propagate. I choose to be independent , not to be a tag-along or the Oposition but to stay true to myself, no matter what. This distinction is important to me, because I have experienced people, who vote or speak out against something, only to be against it, but lack any idea of what they do stand for. Being alternative without an opinion or option you live for doesn’t help anyone, but only lets you get lost in the flow of things.
It is important to me, that I am not intending to over a universal solution, nor do I believe in anyone being able to offer one „right“ solution for all of humanity. I believe that everyone must find there own truth and path in life, and am greatful for every human being that decides it tob e a positiv one, nurturing not only their own ego, but their community, the people they are connected to. As it is said, that everyone is connected via seven corners, I have the imfinite hope, that this kind of positism connects humanity around the globe. Every act of violance, not matter how benevolant it may seem, is a choice – a choice often made negligent to it’s character and consequences. My choice ist o meet the world with compassion and forebarance, and live my own truth.
Why have I chosen a blog as my platform? Because I have often experienced in conversations with friends and family, that sharing perspective helped me find my truth, my path, acknowledge patternst hat had fallen into a rut and were invisible until someting someone said shone a light on it. Maybe my I can do the same for you? Not to show you how it’s done, but to let you percieve the world through my eyes . What you choose to do with that, is up to you and entirely your respobsibility, as it is your life, your truth, your choice.
Ultimatly, these are my experiences with and thoughts on life and some fiction in between I create out of it all. Hence, no scientific claims of any kind. Neiter complete nor absolut or universal. Soley a glimps of my experience, my truth, my life, my path. This might all sound sophisticated or abstract. But if you choose to accompany on my journey by reading my blog, you might find more tangiable stories and stuff to follow.
In any case, I wish you all the best for your own journey and hope you find what you are seeking.
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